My inner quest

Since childhood, I had received meaningful teachings in my dreams. Through lucid dreaming, I explored a very different world from my everyday reality in which one moment I could be experiencing blissful and uplifting experience, and would suddenly fall into a hellish and infernal one. From ecstasy and awe, I would plunge into pain and distress. These inner states were no dreams but part of the subtle inner adjustments that were necessary for my psyche to help awaken to its true nature. 

I knew that my spiritual inner quest needed to be rooted in a psychological approach. I had to ground these two different approaches and find a way to blend and harmonize them. This was a much better way to heal and unblock the trapped subconscious energies. Thus, I found that my training in Psychosynthesis was definitely helping me to look at myself from a new perspective. This “new way” was emerging through my process as a silent witness from within the center of consciousness.  I was becoming a silent observer of myself, and through this incredible transformation, a subtle ethereal bridge was starting to link the two opposite energies within me, uplifting my consciousness to new heights. In retrospect, this “inner” bridge was the link that grounded me. Like Jacob’s Ladder, it was a channel opening new doors within myself.

I noticed, however, that bridging and harmonizing the two extreme energies within me made me aware of some subtle qualities that were starting to emerge from my psyche. For example, I noticed that when I observed my own psychological process, something different was operating within me. My conscious self accepted whatever was surfacing from within, with a kind of compassion and understanding, a peaceful feeling towards my own ego. From the depths of my psyche, something was telling me that everything was going to be okay. When negative things surfaced in my consciousness during meditation, or dreams, rather than the old embarrassment was a more loving and nurturing way.

My dreams were filled with vivid, powerful experiences that were initiations, doors within doors opening and unfolding new levels of consciousness. At first, it was a mixture of levels of consciousness coming from past incarnations that needed to be purified. Other levels appeared, too, more uplifting and blissful. I saw the quickening and awakening levels of consciousness as “seeds” that needed to be purified and protected from the outside invading paradoxes that psychology was offering me. And, while maturing in the silent darkness of my subconscious, these “seeds” were impacting my dreams. So, without understanding how this inner process worked, I was nonetheless starting to empty and purify an inner space within me in which these experiences were delicately transformed as “new seeds.”

Through intuition and inner guidance, I realized that I had to transform the psychological aspect of my ego into a pure empty vessel to be used by my soul. So, everything that was hidden in my subconscious had first to surface gradually to the level of my consciousness. I knew intuitively that I needed to find a “Middle Way,” an approach that would show me how to merge the two extreme poles of ego and soul, synthesizing and uniting them into something new, so that the ego became the empty vessel for the soul to pour in its essence. However, I later discovered that by being “emptied” of its past patterns, the ego transmuted itself into a vehicle of pure awareness and consciousness. Yes! My ego was just starting to become a medium for the soul.

This was how I discovered the “Middle Way,” which meant that the light of consciousness was no longer trapped in a cloudy and opaque vessel, but started to shine through a cleansed and clearer level of consciousness.

A DIVINE PERFECT MODEL

"Or The Consciousness of Pure Being-ness"